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[01 Mar 2004|08:25pm] |
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i wish i could write how i really felt about everything. i wish i could express myself without everyone judging me. i mean, if the one person i want to know how i really trully felt could just know i love them and what i want. but i'm too scared to say it..life would be great if only it were perfect. i doubt you'll ever read this..but if you do, i hope you know now, even though you'll tell me its too late. </3
new journal. find it yourself.
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[29 Jan 2004|02:35am] |
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i love you <3
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[02 Jan 2004|10:56am] |
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oh wow. last night i was dumb. i dont know whats going on now.. :\ and considering i fell asleep at 8am..and got woken up at 9:45 to my cell phone going off means i will be sleeping all day today.
but yah..on a good note stephanie and justin are coming down tomorrow from yorktown. im soo excited :D! bye..i wont be online for awhile
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[02 Jan 2004|03:37am] |
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[01 Jan 2004|10:42am] |
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new cell 6156964. bout time.
damn i fucked up last night...
happy new years everyone.
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[31 Dec 2003|03:12pm] |
I am 34% Emo
Hmm.. I should stop listening to Dashboard Confessional.... enough said... Now that I stopped looking at my shoes, I know how the real world looks.
Take the Emo Test at fuali.com
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[31 Dec 2003|03:06pm] |
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i love my ryan.
i hope it kills you wes, and i hope it hurts.
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[12 Nov 2003|05:29pm] |
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eeeeeekkkkkkkkkk. i <33 you. bwooob :)
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[02 Nov 2003|11:35am] |
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this weekend was insane. and i love coming online to read these retarded ass comments from sluts. you all spend soo much time writing dumb pointless shit just so it can be deleted. i dont even bother reading it anymore because it hurts to laugh so much. i kept up the little roast beefs junk because shes a joke to humanity. and yes, this is funny. you all get worked up for no reason, how pathetic. come on, waste some more time so we can joke ya'll some more. <3
and if your still gonna waste your time on me, come up with some good shit, because your "jokes" are soo dumb..its what everyone says to everyone now adays. i love you guys. did you not notice that last entry about how im content with my life, i enjoy everything about it, all you do it bitch about everything .. obviously your lives arent to wonderful as you make them out to be. mine is great thats all you need to worry about, worry about you.
so yah, ryan comes home today and i'm excited. today my plans are going to include massive wastedness. woo.
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[31 Oct 2003|04:18pm] |
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omg. i havnt been online in like forever. haha its nothing to miss. i've been too busy for this shit and i've been grounded so im always out. schools great, i <333 school. and i love after school. ah life is peachy.
here i'll update my school days
A:
english-that class is always fun. shawn and i talk about the stupidest shit everr
geometry-GAH i have tim, melissa, anthony, adam, and sam whitlow. i mean, how could it NOT be awesome?
PE-MY FAVORITE CLASS EVERRR.i have my baby ryan in there and i have him for 90 minutes and we all play volleyball and its just hardcore.
i leave early A days and go home with ryan and usually go out with him and JJ to eat.
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Oceanography-meslissa, anthony, and steph. and mr.h is like fun as hell. besides i have a D right now its all chill.
Biology-omg i dont know if pe or bio is better. all we do is joke the shit out of becca bissell. dude no one in that class likes her exept myabe 1 person. its sooo weak when we rip her apart. gah :D
va us history- it isent the funnest time but i got helen and its fun to joke mallory and i love hearing stories about the sophmores at church. i <33 you helbel.
then i leave early sometimes. but lunch is chill. yaya i <33 school.
uhm, homecoming was GAY but the weekend was greatttt !! uhm i dunno what else has been going on. i just hang out with the same people who kick ass. its better chillin with people older then 14 and 15.
i dunno what im doing for halloween yet. melissa may come over and stay the night..steph hopefully is coming over this weekend. <33333 later. i'll be back prob in a few weeks <33
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[13 Oct 2003|08:09am] |
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haha now katie, you have a reason to hate me.
what now
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[13 Oct 2003|07:30am] |
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i hate sluts. yes i hate you charley.
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[12 Oct 2003|08:25pm] |
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i cant wait for homecoming.
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[07 Oct 2003|07:34pm] |
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im online finally. schools fun sometimes. i like a days. im always gone after school. i got asked to homecoming but i said no. im going with my friend . a girl. i can live without being with the opposite sex even as FRIENDS. *assholes* well i want my old bf back. well i dunno..just someone. loveeee <3333333
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[22 Sep 2003|06:30pm] |
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well the hurricane came. knocked out my power. i STILL dont have any. :( i've been chillen with some new people. they are really cool. we all got close hah. i dunno. ant kicks ass
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[14 Sep 2003|07:07pm] |
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yep. no job. tomorrow starts the phone/sleep week. bah
Hiii bryan. welcome to my friends list.
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[14 Sep 2003|03:27pm] |
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well today i lost pretty much the only 2 things i had left. one because of me and one because of shit luck. but i cant say i didnt try :(
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[13 Sep 2003|11:56pm] |
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yah so i havnt been on lj or on a computer in massss time. didnt miss too much. they changed the lj layout thing and it took me forever to figure out how it works haha. actualy i had to ask someone. im gay. well school is ok. its school - nothing great.
since school i kinda lost my social life. haha. i go to school..get home..call wes..go to work..come home..sleep..and repeat. day in day out. sux. oh well. the whole wes thing wont last long..im over that shit.ugh..i wanna barf thinking about >it<. work is fun. everyone just kicks ass. i wish i was happy sometimes..but im not.
tomorrow i gotta be at work at 6:30am. damn. someone should get up and call me because i work alone until like 11? 4370803 yum :)
love
[hah get this-"dont cry, thats gay. just think to yourself, we are going out just without a title"
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[30 Aug 2003|10:06pm] |
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the pain is killing me. i would rather be dead then feel this everyday. :'(
why cant it just stop.
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[30 Aug 2003|06:52pm] |
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well i got in trouble last weekend and i had to go to my dad's. i got a job at mahi mah's. they worked me 18 hours in my first 2 days.. poo. came home thursday and worked. friday was good stuff until work. ;) <33333 now im back at my dads till monday morning. my dad and step mom went out so i am at someones house. woo fun fun. ahh i dont want school to start. i do but i dont. i had wes in 9th and 10th grade at FC..now i'll be alone. im gay. yah so anyway. monday im hanging out with dawn-unless you forgot lol. we will have one last day of freedom. bah <333333333
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